Today is my birthday... why dont i feel excited and happy?
i dont really know. it just doesnt seem like its my birthday at all. i was so excited about it. but when it rained today, i wanted to cry. 2 days ago, i saw the most perfect of days. and yesterday it rained for the whole day, so i hoped that today would be a perfect sunny day too. but i was wrong. i expected too much on my 18th birthday. what a fool i was.
at least Christina tried to surprise me during lunch today. TRIED :P she bought me a blueberry cheese cake :) thank you :D
sigh. im crying, and im wondering why im not happy that its my birthday. last year, i had so many people messaging me, this year, the numbers dropped so drastically...
