Sigh, i went back to my old house to have dinner with my mom. I missed my dog so much... And when i saw my dog, she was so thin! She smelt like she hasnt showered in weeks... I was heartbroken when i saw my dog so thin. When i carried her, i could feel the ribs. Its like she was some POW... Its like she weighed 5kg....
Its just heartbreaking. Felt like crying the first time i saw my dog after so long. I dont know what to do...
I cant believe i get blamed so badly by my brother just cos i took 1hr and 30 mins to fetch my sis home from sch cos she was sick....
Nobody was there for me when i needed someone to talk to when i was young, not even my parents.
My parents were always worried for them, and me? I'm the anti-social, lying, attention seeking, cold-hearted son.
They never knew why i seeked attention when i was young. They never asked. They never worried bout me when i was sick. My mom was always so stingy over money to send me to the doctor. She was never stingy to them. My parents NEVER KNEW what they were doing to me. They probly thought either of them were paying attention to me. But assumptions dont really tell u its true. They've gotten so many gifts from my parents, so many things. Almost everything they asked for...
When i was young, i have always been constantly lied to by my parents... Whenever i asked for a toy, they always said, i'll get it for u tomorrow. Always hoping that i would forget cos i was young and probly want something else. But i really wanted that toy car so badly for months... LIES LIES LIES!!
Is that what parents do? Lie? Push the blame on the child cos their young and they dont know anything? Blame someone else cos they wanna save their pride? Say things like, i regret giving birth to u? I have always stood up for my brother and sister. But have they ever stood up for me? Never. Their too afraid to take a beating, too afraid to stand for whats right. Whatever happened to Justice? Whatever happened to Truth? Whatever happened to the world? Whats going on with parents these days? Life doesnt revolve around them once they've got a family. Life doesnt and shouldnt revolve around anything or anyone! Shouldnt life be good to live? Shouldnt people be happy that their still alive? Be it healthy or sick. Im sure it beats dying.
I'm not gonna say that my siblings dont understand me. Cos their not very observant and they take things for granted sometimes. I just wish they would be a little more caring for me. Not just push the blame to me over and over again. Everyone makes mistakes. But the one that admits his mistakes is the real Man/Woman. It takes guts to admit you've done wrong. It takes guts to say sorry though you have dont NOTHING wrong. It takes guts to say NO. It takes guts to open up to someone, to tell them your fears and all. It takes guts to TRUST.
Sigh. I've never cried like this since i was 5 yrs old. I'm just so hurt by what they said. Now i know how my Dad felt when my sister scolded him.
Gerald left a note at 8:57 PM
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I find it so hard nowadays to update my blog. Well, here is a new update.
Erm.. I'm attached now, to a girl named Christina. I'm happy being with her. Feels like a dream come true.
Just worried for my friends Ian and Eudora. Hmm...
I'm confused, yet happy and sad.
Oh yea, and i watched Mr Bean's Holiday just now. Its a good show, laughed throughout the movie. LOL!
I guess life has its ups and downs. Time makes people wait. Having patience would be a good thing. Losing it, might be a real pain. I've got nothing left to say but sorry.
Hmm... I have no idea what im doing. Haha. Oh yea, and i bought a vcd called Walk The Line. Haha.
