I tried so hard, to keep this going. I did everything right, hoping nothing would go wrong.
Yet you keep lying, denying you were right. It hurt me more each time, and you left scars in my mind.
I cried each time I remembered, the pain, the joy, the tears.
Time to let go, and let fate decide. As we go our seperate ways, I hope you will find happiness.
I have been cheated many times, and you didn't do any different. You promised I would be happy, and I foolishly trusted you.
Its been 9 months, and the promise hasn't been fulfilled. I'm deeply disappointed, I guess this is for the best.
Gerald left a note at 10:02 PM
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Sunday, January 13, 2008
I had so much fun today at sentosa. Though i had only 5 hours of sleep.
Well, too long to say the story at sentosa. LOL
but after that, i went for dinner with Ian at seoul garden in ngee ann city. then we took the bus back to bukit panjang.
we were supposed to go home but Ian decided we chill at Starbucks.
AND YET AGAIN!!! I FLOODED HIM WITH MOTIVATIONAL SPEECHES! lol His head was held high and then it started getting lower and lower till he started staring at the floor. Which means i was making a point.
Haha.
I just kept telling him to give himself a chance and be confident and use that power of speech he has to socialise instead of complaining about being single time and time again. Then i told him, the word "TRIED and TRIED MY BEST" can only be used until the results of the situation are out. Cos he keeps giving up, you can't say you've tried until its over if not thats counted as GIVING UP! The word PERSERVERE needs to be used more often in peoples lives. so many people are giving up
If you want something to happen, u have to do something about it in order to make it happen. things dont fall down from trees unless their Apples.
If someone calls u stupid and u get mad, then u really are stupid. Just tell yourself, he's just jealous. Your life is IN YOUR HANDS!!! If you want a good life, start doing things right.
If you fall, pick yourself up(duh) But dont fall after every step u take, thats stupid, do something to push yourself a lil higher, if u keep falling, you're doing something wrong.(the same mistake basically)
Everything lies within you, everyone and anyone can be who they wanna be, if they put their hard to it, they'll find a way someday. If that day never comes in the end, u can tell yourself that u accomplished something at least. What did u accomplish? Nothing! BUT you feel good about yourself, because you kept TRYING and never gave up no matter what people said and how the odds were stacked against you. You are happy because you are stronger than others, cos everyone else gives up halfway.
Make something out of your life, dont take too long to think. By then, it'll be too late to do anything. I know i know, im not doing what im saying now, But who says i can't share my thoughts! LOL. We're all getting older each day, the phrase "You can't teach old dogs new tricks" is wrong. The truth is, YOU CAN! It just takes time and patience, and its frustrating too. So make the right choices now to prevent that.
IAN! PLEASE WAKE UP!!!!! NOBODY RUNS YOUR LIFE BUT YOU!!!
Gerald left a note at 1:37 AM
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Sunday, January 06, 2008
To Love Somebody - BeeGees
There's a light A certain kind of light That never shone on me I want my life to lived with you Lived with you
There's a way everybody say To do each and every little thing But what does it bring If I ain't got you, ain't got ?
You don't know what it's like, baby, You don't know what it's like To love somebody To love somebody To love somebody The way I love you
There's brain I see your face again I know my frame of mind You ain't got to be so blind And I'm blind, so very blind I'm a man, can't you see What I am I live and breathe for you But what good does it do If I ain't got you, ain't got ?
