He was so blind. He was so afraid to trust her. He feared losing her. Those doubts drove him crazy. For he loved her so...
He would do anything, He would change himself, He would even kill himself, Just to see a smile on her face, Just to make see her happy again.
An angry thought he had, Set him ablaze inside, He wanted to let her go, But he dared not. For his love kept growing, And she was all he had left, To keep him going.
He told her the thought, And explained why he did not. She turned and tried to run, But he pulled her back. She cried in hurt, She cried in pain, For she has never thought of leaving him, Due to anger and frustrations.
He was so ashamed, He wanted to kill himself, But she held him back. Saying "You dared not follow your thoughts Only, Because you truly love me." Yet, He could not believe that he had been forgiven. After hurting her so bad, Then, He knew, That he had been wrong.
He had been wrong to doubt her love. He had been wrong, To doubt HER. He was disappointed at himself, Now he has seen and felt, The love she truly has for him. The feelings she has for him, But have always been so afraid to show. Now, The both of them know. They need each others LOVE, To keep on going..
Gerald left a note at 10:18 PM
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Sunday, June 24, 2007
Lifehouse - Make me over
Wrap my arms around your name Feel your breath against my pains As I breath out The Past is gone Empty Smile Make it hard Who I was, Falls apart When you're here Inside of me Feel till your no death perception becoming the new different door. I'm losing myself just to find a place in your mind In your mind Changing myself just to stand alone in your eyes In your eyes Pull me in, Take me out, Make me over Read the wave, ride your fears In this ocean of years, we've been here Swimming off Take me deep, till I find Every corner of your mind We've been here Swimming off Touch, till you taste all the time We are wasting alone Waiting here I'm losing myself just to find aplace in your mind In your mind Changing myself just to stand alone in your eyes In your eyes Pull me in, Take me out, Make me over And shout me outload, Shout me outload I'm losing myself just to find a place in your mind In your mind Changing myself just to stand alone in your eyes In your eyes I'm losing myself just to find a place in your mind In your mind Pull me in, Take me out, Make me over....
Gerald left a note at 4:59 AM
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Saturday, June 09, 2007
What i find in people, they do not admit the things they have done wrong. Like some of my gaming mates. They never admit to it when u dont ask. EVEN if you ask, they wont admit it even more. And when u really close them down, the still use excuses to run from humiliation.
It takes guts and confidence to admit to your mistake though u know that u face humiliation. Whats the big deal? Why keep running? The more you run, the more it chases after you. Facing or Taking on your fear as soon as possible boosts alot of confidence in you and helps your own self-esteem. Gives you discipline as well, just depends on how you see it.
Proof already says it, yet you decide to run. Running is just like lying to someone. When u lie to someone, you're lying to yourself aswell. Cos when u feel its right to lie to that person, u never learn from your mistake. And u will feel u can do it to others.
Hmm. I have no idea why im posting so much of my thoughts. Just wanna let u readers know, that this is just general. Not pointing out anyone. :)
Oh ya, just wanna add on. errr... Do not say you cannot do it without trying. There is a solution to every problem. There is always a way to break through to the answer, just look at it in a different way each time you face a dead end. :D
Gerald left a note at 9:58 PM
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Thursday, June 07, 2007
Singapore banning downloads of Anime? You have got to be kidding me. Singapore itself is already so boring, People watch Anime to pass time and be entertained.
Integrated Resort? How does one be entertained by it as a Singaporean when u have to pay a fee just to go in and gamble? In Casinos, winning a game is 1 in 10 people on the tables. At slots, its 1 in 150 people at least. Thats how they make money.
Formula 1??? Its ONCE A YEAR! The tickets will be so expensive only few Singaporeans will be watching. And people from overseas will be flocking down to catch it. Sometimes i wonder, are all these attractions made to attract tourists or is it for the country and its people. Cos greed over money seems to be stopping Singaporeans from doing things legally.
Rules Rules Rules... Thats what Singapore is made of. The words Freedom Of Speech has become extinct! Saying the wrong thing gets u sued or fined or maybe even jailed. Thats what you're feeling like saying inside, that's freedom of speech. And what, the law is stopping everything.
Downloads are being banned. Singaporeans are paying money just to go GAMBLING LEGALLY! Every year, Singapore adds more rules/laws. Are they satisfied? OBVIOUSLY NOT! People are migrating and leaving Singapore. Cos jobs are hard to find, yes. But what do u think is the other cause?
One day, Singapore, or maybe even the world. Will be dominated by rules/laws from the government. When do I think they will be satisfied? Well, i think only when everyone is living by their rules. You might as well just kill yourself. Cos you won't bother thinking of your own things to do anymore, cos its probly banned aswell! Its like you're a dog, doing whatever they say.
Thats what I think.
Gerald left a note at 11:10 PM
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Friday, June 01, 2007
This was the poem i wrote for my girlfriend Christina the next day after i had the best day of my life, which was on 4th May '07. Im only posting it now since ive never thought of anything to blog for a long long time. LOL. Just wanna share with u guys what i've shared with her. :D
The Unplanned Night
The moon and stars, Shining so bright. Romance in the air, It was everywhere that night.
As we gazed at the sky, The beautiful night sky. I turned to look at you, The shimmer in your eye, Got me mesmerized.
I saw the moon and stars, In your eyes that night. I saw the patience and care, That you never fail to share.
The loss of direction, The plans that went wrong. Turned out good in the end, As if,time was gone.
A night to remember, And never forget. A night full of memories, That I'll never regret.
The freedom we had, The love that we shared. The thoughts of the future, The gentle touch,Of your hand.
We kissed under the stars, I felt the world, Had just the two of us.
You are on my mind, All the time. You are my Day & Night, The 4 Seasons in my life.
I shall say the words, That my heart has longed to say. I will love you, Even after my dying day.
