You have been the Volcano, On my Snowy Cold Mountain.
Often errupting, and almost never forgiving.
As your flame and heat melt, Me off the Earth's surface. All I have left, is Air to blow you away. But you live on Air.
I have none left to breathe on, As I slowly die, You never show your Mercy, But only Mother Nature's Fury.
After you are done, I am slowly rebuilding my mountain. The Mountain is my heart and soul. And before I am done healing myself.
You errupt yet again, Leaving me with nothing. All I see are open plains, Full of ash.
Have A Heart. If you really Love me. Change, Try to understand me.
At the top of every Volcano, There lies a small degree of Snow. And that is how I get close to you.
You should know, What I've wanted from you. As I have always told you.
Though you expect me to know what you want, I do try to give each time I get the chance.
You are killing me inside, Do you not see?
No matter how plain and forward, I tell you what I want. Yet, You fail to give.
Though its as small as, Just asking for 1 minute. To send me a message. As small as, Just telling me You Love me.
Please Understand Me. Please Listen Carefully. Each Time I repeat, I sacrifice a part of me.
Just to forgive, My ONE and ONLY Love. A small part of me is eaten up, Because being angry at you, Breaks my heart.
I know, Everyone is Capable of CHANGE. Everyone can be who they want to be. As long as they are determined. As long as they have A REASON.
Gerald left a note at 6:28 PM
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Monday, August 06, 2007
Okay. Had quite a rough weekend.
Had my gaming tournament on saturday. 12 hours at the event. LOL. Me and my teammates managed to get first place. :)
And yesterday, we collected our prizes in the morning and blah blah. Lack of sleep. Then stayed there till bout 4.30 cos i didnt wanna go home as i was meeting Christina later.
We had dinner at Fish&Co, and there were so many people having their birthday there. bout 4 if i remember correctly. After that, erm. After me and Christina came out from the toilet at Parkmall. We decided to take a side exit. And she missed a step. Fractured here ankle. And we had quite a rough night basically.
When i got home. My brother gave me my handphone bill to look at, and passed me a letter. The letter was from poetry.com It said that a poem which i entered into a poetry contest made it to the semi-finals. And it will be published in an upcoming poetry book. I was so excited and happy.
Until my sister came into the room telling me that my best friend got into a car accident. I was so worried. My girlfriend was jealous, thinking that i have 2 girls in my heart, instead of 1. Its hard for me already. My knee joints keep rubbing, and it hurts so badly. I took care of my girlfriend till she got a cab home. But i guess it wasn't enough to keep her from feeling jealous afterwards. 2 girls, 1 a lover, the other a close friend. 1 with a fractured ankle, the other with injuries from the car accident and is still i shock. I dont understand girls, but...jealousy has a limit too. I slept around 1am just to help Christina feel more secure. Lost alot of sleeping time.
I haven't had enough sleep since the 28th july. I just wish i could get some sleep. But there are so many things bothering me. I dont know what to do. I can't even think and care about myself right now no matter how much pain i am in. Think i'm gonna get sick soon.
And i got the video of me singing some songs. Got no mood to post up here. But if u readers want to see it, u can gimme ur email and i'll send u through MSN.
