Sadly, today my 2 colleagues that play the guitar during lunchbreak took leave from work today.
Their like best buds so they probly took leave from work together.
So, still no video. Think most probly next week.
And during work,
I thought of the mistakes i've done to my girlfriend.
Like, during the past 3 days.
And just wrote something out of it.
Each time you think I forgot,
To make a call to you.
Its not because I forgot,
Its that,
I just could not.
Though I explained,
Spoke truth,
I felt you just would not,
Believe me..
I am really sorry,
I am trying my very best.
Yet obstacles always appear,
Without warning,
And leaves me with no where else to go,
But forward.
I truly am sorry,
But you can always call me,
When I fail to do so.
If I don't make the move,
Are you just going,
To keep sitting there,
Waiting...
For your phone to ring?
This picture, was taken when me and my friends were at Starbucks.
Well,
We were really moody,
And just sick and tired of waiting.
Me and my friend's girlfriend PLUS another friend of ours,
were just talking amongst themselves about their own stuff.
We felt left out,
and just wanted to go home.
Yet we ended up taking pics like this.
Sigh,
I guess nobody likes waiting...
Gerald left a note at 7:04 PM
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Wednesday, July 25, 2007
I just stopped crying.
Just couldnt stop thinking of my dog.
I had so many horrible thoughts of her today.
I kept seeing her in a coffin.
And i wanted to cry so badly during that time.
Now, every time i blink or close my eyes,
I see her eyes.
Remember the way she looked at me whenever i was sad.
Think i'll post the poem i wrote about her.
Her name is Chocolate.
Chocolate
Whenever i was sad,You would always cuddle up to me.
And keep me company.
Whenever i came home from school,
You would always come running to greet me.
Whenever i have a bad day,
You would look at me with those beautiful eyes.
And put a smile on my face.
You're like another sister to me,
I just dont know what to do now without you.
I feel a big piece of my heart has just been ripped out.
Stolen and kept for ransom.
I pray you'll come back to me safely.
But i would never do anything to hurt you.
Just breaks my heart into another million pieces.
Over and over and over.
Everytime i cry,
You'd lick the tears i've cried.
I know u dont want me to cry.
Right now,
At this moment.
I'm crying my heart out,
Trying to keep the pain inside,
Its just too hard!
No matter how angry and sad i am,
No matter how hard i punish myself.
I just wish none of this would happen,
To cause me to lose You.
I Love You,I Love You,I Love You.
Gerald left a note at 11:30 PM
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Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Today at during my lunchbreak at work. Was singing with my colleagues at work. Actually i was the only 1 singing, they just play the guitar and i love singing. LOL. I always sing for my girlfriend, so i guess its sorta like practice. But i wanna learn the guitar so badly! Firstly, i dont have a guitar. Secondly, i dont know anyone that is very good at playin the guitar.
Oh, and i was singing the song I've Got A Message For You by BeeGees this afternoon. To me, i sung it really well. When i asked my friend beside me, he said i was really really good, he said i was d**n good. Haha. I felt like askin him to take a video cos i was confident bout singing that song. But i forgot. So...i'll try to remember tmr and maybe post it up on my blog! Haha. :) I've got a video of singing the song Words by BeeGees. I dont think i was very good, tough my friend kept saying i was. When i sang that song, it was like the second week that i was there. And it was the first time singing with my colleagues. So yea, was nervous. I MIGHT post up that video together with the new one if i remember to take it. Haha. Depends on my nerves. :P
I LOVE YOU CHRISTINA!
Gerald left a note at 10:03 PM
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Monday, July 23, 2007
Haven't posted for quite awhile. Been busy with work and catching up with friends and meeting my girlfriend. Sorry!! Haha. Today when i was on the bus home. I was listening to BeeGees. And there are a few songs which i've got attached to. Somehow connects with my feelings and mood.
As I watch each train go by, I start wondering, If you are coming.
As people get on and off the train, I desperately look for you among the crowds.
Anxiety begins fading away, An the loss of excitement, Makes me think, If I would be better of, Staying at home.
The train station, So far from home, I rushed there just to meet you on time, As I left late.
I made it on time, But you were no where in sight. You finally returned my calls, Saying you haven not left yet, And you would be there soon.
Yet my spirits weren't lifted, As each second went by, I felt the dark side pulling me in... I felt like giving up, And I felt like leaving.
Gerald left a note at 11:07 PM
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Thursday, July 05, 2007
Make the sacrifice for the ones you love. Before they leave, And you just wish they could see, How much they mean to you.
Sigh.
If u really loved me so much, No matter what obstacles we would face. U would face it with me. Instead of letting go, and giving in to fear.
I have done so much. U have promised me so much. But why is it so easy for you to say, and so hard for you to show me.
The simplest things you do, The easiest things you CAN do. Mean the most to me, No matter how small they may seem to u.
Dont u think its worth it? Cos you are doing it for me? The promises that you have made, Just dont seem real.
Cos when the time came, U turned around and ran. The words you say now, Are getting harder to believe.
The more you hesitate, it gets harder for me to believe. I starting to have doubts, about your love to me now.
I think you're losing love for me, Yet i am still gaining love for you. I always try not to give up without a fight, But dont encourage me to run.
In this case now, Actions really speak louder than words. Cos things are easier said than done. Its like you dont want me to know anything about you anymore. U wont even show me the real you without hesitating. All i wanted was for u to let down your hair.
And i got the stupidest excuse. Why is it so hard for me to see your unpinned up hair? Why is it so troublesome to redo it again? Does this mean u arent willing to go through all that trouble for me, Cos u are lazy?
I have nothing left to say. Too much has been said already. U should know by now. Time to do it for me.
