Let's see, haven't posted anything here in awhile. Haha. Least i don't see any cobwebs forming yet. :P Its like, 1.45am and i can't sleep. Everytime i lie down on my bed, i think of the past and i just can't stop thinking bout it. Keep thinking of this certain girl, obviously a girl i like, DUH! LOL. Then she doesn't reply my msgs, and her handphone is always on silent mode so she doesn't answer my calls either. And i just can't understand why every date that i've been on with her, she's always LATE!!! By over half and hour!!! AND I MEAN EVERY DATE! Let's see, bout FIVE!!! Might not be alot, but i get damn sick and tired of waiting for her everytime. Everytime i see her, she says sorry to me cos she was late, SHE SHOULD APOLOGISE! But i feel very weird that she always says sorry, she should've learnt from her mistakes by now... :( Man, and i seriously miss her hugs. Haha.
Wrote something recently, not very good i'd say. But it just came to me so i just wrote it.
Tough Searching for a place inside your heart, hoping that we can make a start. Each day I keep trying hard, but you closed the doors shut.
Praying you would let me in, and forgive me for my sins. I truly apologise from within, but my chances are too slim.
I run from my problems, and i keep feeling troubled. Although life has to go on, I think I'm stuck in this bubble.
Gerald left a note at 1:51 AM
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Thursday, October 05, 2006
Sigh...
I call this one Reminsicing
The tears that roll from my eyes, are the tears of hurt which you gave me. It might take years to forget this, yet all I have are just memories.
Memories of the past, will always be remembered. To you, it may have turned to dust, I'll just lay here shattered.
Waving goodbye to you, is the hardest thing for me to do. All the kisses and hugs, leave a scar, in my heart.
People might say I am too young, but frankly I think, you are the one. Cuddled up in bed with you, during a rainy day, both down with flu.
I imagined of getting married, spending the rest of my life with you. Always thinking our love would last, it all finally ended, as time passed.
Determined to get you back, confidence is what i lack. Always wondering how you would feel, if I kissed you again, like in movie films.
You might have moved on, but my love for you will stay put.
Gerald left a note at 2:45 AM
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Tuesday, October 03, 2006
hmmm.....
There are so many things in this world, that remind me of you. Everywhere i go, everything i see, the memories, just pop right in.
The times we had, the times we shared. Life just isn't the same, without you. I have tried to move on, time and time. But its the love i have for you, that won't make me let go.
Being friends with you, still tell me i can be with you. But the feeling of being together, has disappeared into oblivion.
When you left me, on the day of love. I was deeply hurt, and i made a promise. To wait for you, it was a broken promise. The pain i felt inside, left me confused. Ideas kept me thinking, if you still loved me.
But being the pessimist, i tried something new. To find someone else, yet i never moved on. It's not the same. I just kept forcing myself, to forget. I ended up being depressed, and filled with angst.
Regretting what i've done, i asked for a second chance. The feelings you had, have changed. I lay here waiting, hoping, wishing and dreaming, That the times we had, would be replayed, again. I want you back.
